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upward trajectory.
2018-08-20 @ 9:20 p.m.
yes, it's 9:20pm. and yes, i am still at work. boss was trying to get out of here, was all packed up and ready to go at 8:15 (we had already had a long ass day), and then JC came over here and wanted to finish up his paperwork he's been putting off for the past few weeks because he wants to get paid. one of the many reasons i don't like this guy is that he never really cares how much he's inconveniencing other people. but that's a whole other entry. i got a raise! finally. after 2.5 years with boss. he said he's sorry it's not more but he's been doing all of these crazy reorganization moves and hopes that it will result in a better, more smoothly running business that will result in better profits, and then he can pay me even better. i am just thankful for this. it amounts to exactly a 10% increase, which is awesome because it ends up being pretty significant amount of extra money per week for me. i am happy and excited and most of all, i earned this. this wasn't anyone's plan for me, i just found this place and these people who i fit in with, and who love me and i love them, and everything is good. i worked hard and in good faith to earn my place here and now i'm second in command. i truly - and i really mean it - truly love my job. even my tiny apartment. i was laying on the couch yesterday doing absolutely nothing because i worked saturday (i like to have one day a week of pure relaxation), and i was just listening to the rain and enjoying the ambience of my beautiful lights that i wanted for so long, and i just felt content. this lingering scar on my soul will fade, with time. i know this. i just have to have the patience to let it heal. and i have to do some work to ensure that i don't make the same mistakes, but i'm working hard at that too. i feel like a little bit of that is rubbing off on boss. i keep telling him that things won't change unless you work at them and MAKE the change. you can't just wake up and expect things to be different or better. he's had a lot of funerals lately, all of them tragic surprises, and he's been taking the attitude of "if not now, when?" i'm proud of him and excited about where we'll go if he sticks with it and sees it through. clearly i have a problem being direct and to the point so let me bail out of this entry now before i start getting carried away. it's now 10:10 and we're still here. at least i was able to use a lot of this time to clean off and organize my desk. goodnight to you in dland. who knows when i'm getting out of here. |