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 �what is Man? a miserable little pile of secrets.� - andr� malraux "i desire to live in peace and to continue the life i have begun under the motto, to live well you must live unseen." - rene descartes note random entry image credit design by : ilazarn ikmal powered by : diaryland |
health.
2008-06-14 @ 1:41 p.m.
do you ever wonder how long you're going to live? i wonder sometimes if i'll live to be very old and look back on myself now wondering how ever i could have wanted it to end. my will to live right now is about a 3 or a 4. sometimes i wonder how much i would miss it. nothing is really turning out how i imagined it. i wonder if some people live their entire lives feeling that way. people always say, "oh you're lucky you have your health," trying to make you feel guilty for your feelings. but what is health when you can't reconcile your emotions and your feelings? when you can't get yourself out of bed in the morning? if you really think about it, you're not healthy at all. i am not healthy at all. |