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long term thinking.
2010-08-30 @ 1:12 a.m.
drove down to the beach today, talking about each of our dream weddings, but not being too direct, then talking about what we want when we die, what kind of funeral, and what our final wishes are, all beginning with, "when i die, promise me you'll ..." and driving home, taking the back way, talking about being so content and happy together, talking about where we're going to move in a few years and what the house should look like ... i never in my wildest dreams, even just 1 year ago from today, would have imagined that i would be in a beautiful house that i owned, living with the man i would marry soon, the same man who broke my heart so unceremoniously 10 years before, and whom i hadn't seen in 7. as i always always say. even if for some reason he leaves, this will have been the best year i've ever had. i am one to be thankful to have had rather than being resentful about what i've lost. i am so happy now. i am so thankful for everything.
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