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sure.
2014-08-12 @ 9:42 p.m.
i think, another important thing to do when you decide you really love someone in a relationship is to seriously consider how bad things could really get. i know we all say really romantic things like, "oh i'll still love you if you had brain cancer!" and all of that heroic shit, but we gloss over the shitty, gritty, real crappy things that could happen. think of how you will weather depression and anger. going from living really high on the hog to ... not. or even, the opposite of that. think of how you will handle it when someone makes really stupid, crippling decisions. think of how much work you can realistically see yourself putting in for them. and when one or both of you says something really shitty to the other. you know what i mean. when someone crosses the line. i watched that movie blue valentine recently but never wrote about it because it was so depressing, because it was so real. if you haven't seen it, it's about this couple, and the good times and bad throughout the course of their relationship. it perfectly captures those amazing, heart-fluttering moments of early relationship as well as those soul-crushing, subtle misunderstandings that grow into resentments and distance. boy and i say we'll always try for each other. will that always be good enough? i hate getting older, having money and death and the future to worry about. insurance, mortgages, paycheck to paycheck. all that shit. i love you but sometimes i could literally strangle you to death. if only it were all good times. hah. don't we all want that one. this too shall pass, right? |