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our time.
2010-05-08 @ 9:17 p.m.
"we" were invited to a wedding next weekend, and we're in petsmart buying some litter and he asks me if i want to go. when i said yes, he said, "good, because i assumed you'd say yes and already RSVPed." now i am faced with the terrible task of trying to find a dress and some shoes and stuff, which i never ever wear, and feel really awkward in. but the point is that we're a "we" to other people than just us. that took a lot longer with other people i've been with. sometimes it never happened at all. it makes me really happy that i'm invited to be with him, around his family that he doesn't even want to be around. i'm going to be there, and i'm going to be his lady, and he's never liked another girl enough to ask her to do the same. he's told me in the past that they always embarrassed him because they had no class, no manners, no conversational skills. it makes me feel incredible that i'm going both as his lady and also something to show off because he's proud to be with me. i made him an incredible dinner last night, since he could only spend one very short day with me. he kept saying, "i'm SO impressed." and i can't help but beam with pride whenever he tells me that because i'm not usually complimented by anyone. we make each other feel so good when we're together. then we went to get ice cream, then came back and tried to watch a movie but he was too sleepy. we went to bed and sex was so satisfying as usual. sometimes i'm not 100% in the mood, but he gets me started and i can't resist. i love when he's squirming and twitching and whispering "baby ..." men can easily go through the motions, but it's a whole other thing to really play and have fun and enjoy it. the biggest test of whether or not he quit smoking was sex, and he managed to resist completely. he was hungry afterward, which he always is (we DID eat really early), but he did it. again, i'm SO proud of him. 12 years of smoking 2-3 packs a day and to quit cold turkey? major feat. this morning he had to wake up really early to go to do something, so i had to let him go. it was hard, laying there beside him, all warm and full of love. i know i'll see him this week, and again next weekend, but i want it like this. not rushed, not anything else but our time. |