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thoughts on where we might be going.
2010-11-10 @ 12:15 p.m.
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i never thought i ever wanted to get married until i met this man, again. when i dated the last one, we had been going for so long that it just seemed like the next logical move to make, but i didn't really feel it. we always fought, we broke up and got back together like 5 times, he was insecure and had no concrete goals in life, and i was not. he was everything that annoyed me about a mate, but we stuck together because we were afraid of not being together. when you purposefully isolate, for years, and all you have left is your best friend who you also happen to be dating, it's hard to imagine life without them. everything is deliberate with boy. we talk, we communicate. we make sure that the other understands what we mean, what our motives are, and why we are the way we are. we tell each other secrets we've never told anyone, ever. so yeah. the image of my finger wearing a ring that he chose for me fills my heart with happiness rather than apprehension and resignation. i talked to my dad yesterday, and he said, "i'm glad you two are still together," and i said, "yeah. i actually really like him." and he laughed, because that really minimizes my feelings for him, but my dad understands that i have always held my emotions and my self very close. right now, i am happy, and i need to go get dressed. i love to look nice for him. |