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nonsense.
2010-11-18 @ 1:30 p.m.
so yesterday we were driving around, on this super ridiculous adventure to get cold stone for dessert, and we were talking about how if he ever got hard up he could walk this truck parking route in an industrial park a couple streets down behind where he lives. i was joking that he should go pantless because he has "a girl's ass" (so many dudes have approached him and said, "i'm not gay or anything, but you have a girl's ass, man."), and he was like, "well i can't just go with a shirt and nothing on the bottom. maybe some thigh highs?" and i guess he noticed how excited i got when he said that, and he was like, "yeah, you'd like that, wouldn't you." and i think he said it partially in jest, but then i was completely serious when i responded, "yes. that would be incredibly hot." so he promised that he would do it sometime, just for me, but then he admitted that he kind of has wanted to do it himself for a while, too. then he said, "well if i'm going to do that, then you need to strap it up for me." and i was like, "why would you even need to ask? of course. like anytime." so i'm glad that there are fishnets and strapons in our future. i didn't mention the other day, when he was here over the weekend, that it is confirmed: female ejaculation does in fact exist, and apparently i was doing it all over his face. we had crazy sex then went out and had these super huge fruity slices of french toast with sweet cream cheese between the layers, and during dinner he said, "yeah so like you were just cumming all over me. didn't you feel me like rubbing my face all over your crotch?" and i said "yeah, of course, but i just thought you were being ridiculous back there," and he said "no, there was serious juice. it was like there was a kiddie pool on my chest." hahaha. sexy though. he was also saying something about getting this silly car when his current one dies, which is 100% impractical for his line of work, but he tossed something in there: "we should look into getting it registered in pennsylvania though," and as i often do, i found myself a little bit stunned (but pleasantly) that this had become a "we" issue. i am never sure of anything, and i am never certain anything is real until it's actually happening. but the more we talk about "we," and buying a house together and getting cars registered, the more i begin to believe that this shit is really happening to me. to us. it's weird when you get to that point with someone that you're pretty sure they're not going anywhere. you'll be bored or agitated or in an off mood, but you know that they'll be there when it's over. it's just assumed. it's like, okay, here's this problem, let's work through it together even though it'll probably suck. whereas before, it was more like, here's this problem, we're probably going to have to break up. weird weird. is this what real love really is? i've never truly known it. it only makes me want to be better. to be the best for him. it's so fulfilling. |