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ahh.
2010-12-04 @ 12:29 p.m.
i know i just post the same thing over and over again, and i'm sorry. but the other day i was writing this super long entry about all of these things that happened, and then something was happening on my computer and i accidentally closed the tab with the entry in it instead of another one i had open just reading someone's random diary. so i gave up at that point because that one had taken so long to compose, and find the right words for. then yesterday he unexpectedly wanted me to drive up there to have dinner with him, and we went to jose tejas again and waited 45 minutes but it was amazing just as it was the first time, and our waiter wasn't a douchebag. we got home and i massaged his feet and he immediately fell asleep, which made me a little bit mad since i didn't want to drive all the way up there yesterday in the first place, but i saw him laying there, and i was watching him breathing, and his big manly tattooed mitts so gently resting on his chest, and as always i was just filled to the brim with love. it's like my heart is going to explode. then this morning he texted me on his way to work that he was sorry he passed out on me, and another really sweet, poetic message, and i know i would leave my house right now to drive up there and kiss him again. 150 miles, round trip. but he is so worth it. i had a dream we got married. my ring was beautiful and so was my dress, and i was so happy. everyone i love was there - even my friends from high school who moved. i woke up and was surprised this one was a dream ... it felt so natural. everything is the way it should be, and i couldn't ask for more. |