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to elaborate on my previous post:
2011-01-10 @ 1:04 p.m.
so since boy and i are not going anywhere, and he will be living with me for quite some time, he decided that it was time to stop worrying about what she thinks and what she will do and just have his son (A) start spending his weekends (bf's custodial weekends, i mean) here with us. for a long time he was scared to, and he'd go up there and spend the night in A's room, or only spend half a day with him, but now i think he realized that that was A) stupid, B) waaaaayyyyy more trouble than it was worth, and C) pointless since no matter what he does, she's going to be a fucking psycho about it. so during last week he was telling A that he was coming down here, and A was all excited like, "is there a house? where am i going to sleep? who lives there?" so psycho, upon realizing that bf was really serious about bringing A down here, started telling him "no address, no visitation!" which is not true. i don't think that's a law anywhere, but if it is, it's not here. but more importantly, she's not getting my address since she's fucking insane and doesn't work so i know if she knew it, she'd be down here at my house every day. friday she was playing around, refusing to answer her phone to let bf know when she and A would be home so bf could pick him up, causing him to be in a miserable mood, so bf just decided to show up there and take his chances. she was home, and started another fight, but bf swooped A up and just grabbed his stuff and they were out of there. the weekend happened, and as i said in my last entry, it had its moments of being cute or fun, but i ultimately hate kids. the noise level and the constant chatter and the needless fussing over every single thing. it's not for me, and it never will be. i know that bf loves that child with every fiber of his being. but i can also tell that he spends more time being annoyed by him than enamored, and for me, that baseline annoyance that i would always have to repress is not worth my sanity. for years? for the rest of my life. for some people there is no other option, but for me, it's simply out of the question. interspersed throughout the weekend, she kept calling. friday night she called A "to say goodnight," but really she was quizzing him on what was going on. she expected the worst, expecting bf to be with one of his usual skanks in some kind of dive with poor little A being forced to sleep on the cold floor. she wanted that, and we both knew it, because she wanted another fight. but what she got was, "mommy! the house is so big! i have my own room! and a bed!" and as soon as that was out of his mouth she practically hung up on him. she kept calling bf, getting him excited thinking she'll just go and sign the divorce papers with him and be done with it, and then hanging up on him the moment any progress looked like it was being made. she called at least 10 times a day with the same old song. it slowed down a bit sunday only because she goes to church (HAHAHAHAHIQ@H#I@H$IHSF WHAT??!?!?!) and bf and A left early so they could go sledding. i told him in a few moments of relative quiet on sunday morning, "just wait. when he gets home and she has a chance to talk to him and hear what a great time he had, she's going to shit." and sure enough, last night at 2 fucking :30 am, she calls him and we both wake from a deep sleep and i hear her on the other line, "i want to talk to you." and all he could possibly think to say was "don't you ever fucking call me again when i'm asleep. i actually go to work every day to pay you to sit around on your ass. goodbye." i haven't heard from him yet, unless he gets out of work at 3 today, but he usually calls me on his way home. i can't wait to hear what she needed to discuss at 2:30am. i really hate to wish anyone ill will, but this girl is really pushing the limits of what is even unreasonable human behavior. she actually said to bf on saturday, "i'm just having such a hard time choosing between you and [internet boyfriend]." WHAT!? is she on another planet!? THE DECISION HAS BEEN MADE FOR YOU. fuck! |