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 �what is Man? a miserable little pile of secrets.� - andr� malraux "i desire to live in peace and to continue the life i have begun under the motto, to live well you must live unseen." - rene descartes note random entry image credit design by : ilazarn ikmal powered by : diaryland |
one more for the home team.
2011-01-07 @ 8:26 p.m.
it's almost surreal, it's so strange, like an out of body experience that i'm sitting here with bf and his son and it's completely natural and his son is actually cute. we were eating dinner and little A got up and went downstairs and bf said he hated kids. he was like, i really wish i knew that before. is that bad? and i said, no, there's nothing wrong with that at all. and he was like, i think i'm one of those people. and i said, that's okay. it's better that you know that about yourself. and i wonder to myself, if years down the line he will still realize this about himself, realize that the reality is so romanticized and he just got caught under its spell, and not bother me about this, because i can tell you 1000%, without a doubt, after only a couple hours, that as cool as it is to sit here and watch this kid sound out words, and hear the things he picks up from tv and movies and school and how amazing it is to see this little version of bf, with his mannerisms and everything, there is no fucking way on this earth that i will ever birth a child. this is absolutely the limit of which i can bear. |