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moments when you realize:
2011-03-03 @ 1:19 p.m.
my best friend just called me crying from work because she had a totally ridiculous parent teacher conference. long story short, the kid doesn't feel like doing homework ever, so he has a C in her class. he would have an A if he just did homework. instead of having a pair of balls and just owning up to that fact, he instead claims that my friend harasses him constantly, refuses to make time for him after school, and takes only his work and loses it because she personally doesn't like him. all of this makes him so distressed that he wants to kill himself. why is all of this suddenly coming up now, in march? oh, it's golf season and he's not allowed to play for the school unless he has a B average. so there were a million things that i didn't even mention, but the last straw today was this kid's parents coming in, refusing to hear the fact that all of this kid's problems would be solved if he was just responsible and did his work. guidance even arranged for him to get ALL of his missing work (missing as in, he never bothered to do it) from the entire school year so far, but he didn't want to complete it because there was a lot, so his argument was that he didn't understand it. friend and guidance both say okay, let's put you in a basic level class instead of accelerated, but the parents start freaking out, claiming, "NO! OUR SON IS A GENIUS! JUST NOT IN THIS CLASS! WE WANT ANSWERSSSS!!!!" things got to the point where the mother was screaming in the principal's face, 2 seconds away from fighting her, and the boy is in the background screaming that the principal and guidance are "fucking liars." actual police were called in to break it up, but the mother was clutching a chair, and the table, shrieking that she would not leave the premises until she got "SOME FUCKING ANSWERRRRSSSS!" why was any of this allowed to go on? why do parents behave this way, thinking it's acceptable? why do school administrations entertain this kind of bullshit? are we now a culture that allows anyone to do whatever they want as long as they scream and holler long and hard enough? this story wasn't at all shocking to me because i endured a number of parent teacher conferences that were exactly the same. incidents like this are exactly why i don't think i want to teach anymore. actually, i'm pretty sure i don't want to teach anymore. the longer i'm away from it, the less i miss it. i was just looking at the internet today, reading through job postings, and i found a few that require only a high school diploma and 3 years retail (or other comparable) experience that start at $45k, with 401k and health etc benefits. why would i go back to teaching when i can work so much less and make the same, if not a better salary? every job is stressful to some extent, but i no longer would be responsible for 125 individual lives, would no longer be blamed personally for their stupidity and stubbornness. no more working all day, all night, and most of the weekend on paperwork that no one even looks at. what's working a saturday here and there when, for the rest of the week, i would actually get home and be able to relax rather than stress all night about what i had to do the next day? stupid people always claim that teachers don't do anything, and that anyone could do it. i challenge those people to do it for a month. not even to do it well. you really have no idea. ETA: also, my diet/workout plan is going great. haven't worked out all week due to my period and i'm still maintaining at a great weight. i will definitely meet my goal by june if i continue on in this fashion. it's so exciting. |