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naptime.
2012-04-19 @ 11:13 a.m.
ugh. i am miserable. i have a sinus infection, i guess, or it's just a regular cold. i can't really tell since i have asthma, with always acts up and makes me feel ten times worse when i catch even a minor cold. whatever it is, i feel like super shit. in runaway bride news, my brother has been hacking her fb and other stuff to see what the hell is going on, since she won't call anyone back and claims that it was something my dad said that is causing her to refuse to return to the house. i just think it's yet another excuse. if she comes back, i don't know if i will be able to be cool with her again. there's a fine line between selfishness and clear disregard for everyone, and she might have crossed it for me. i can't imagine the explanation that would justify any of this. and her collusion with her mother is really ruining the family. my dad is enraged, but is waiting to see how this all plays out before he does or says anything. what a spot for this girl to put everyone in. what a terrible person. best friend called me the other day to ask if i had seen my brother. it was the next day after he came up here. an aside: the previous night when he came up, he got incredibly drunk pretty much on arrival, and boy told him the filthy sex story, we all discussed how ridiculous she is, and went to bed. so i said yeah, i saw him the previous night, but he left early that day to go to see his friends. so she said, please don't tell him i told you this. promise? and of course i did, because i am the human vault. and she says, he sent me a fb message at like 3am last night asking if i wanted to do it. and i was like dude, are you fucking serious!? especially because - i didn't tell her - that he knew that fucking story. so he probably got wasted that night, remembered that she is a freaky ass ho, and tried to get on it. i was just like why. why a) would he ever want to have sex with this girl who's been like a sister to him for 20 years, and b) why is he trying to sabotage himself? if he gets back with his girlfriend, he'd have that on his shoulders. ugh. i'm watching the last couple episodes of lost and i can't even tell you how much i miss this show. i'm probably going to watch it again from the beginning. i was a huge fan, one of those annoying people who loved to talk about it all the time. i just love scifi anyway, so that was really enough for me, but i also felt so attached to the characters, and there were just so many touching, thrilling, beautiful moments in that show. so many moments of humanity. i know people thought it was far-fetched and nonsensical sometimes, but there was so much in the story to relate to. just like my other favorite show of all time, sailor moon. i've seen every single episode at least twice, all the way from 1-200. yeah, it might be considered a kid's show to some, but it's just another example of sometimes achingly beautiful, sad, joyous moments. i've re-watched the last episode at least 20 times, and every time it makes me cry. i think that what most of us want from life is to be understood, and these shows have these powerful moments that make you realize that you're not alone. i feel tired and shitty. i want to take a nap. now that i said it, i probably will. i almost forgot. it's so funny how the universe works. remember i was talking about my brother's friend J, and how i wish we got to hang out more? well he came over last night but my brother was so drunk that he passed out and slept the whole time J was here. so J and i hung out all night, i made a really great dinner salad, and boy got home so the three of us had some great laughs and dessert together. it was such a good time, and i did say, "J, you're my favorite of [my brother's] friends, and i wish we got to hang out more," to which he replied, "you have my number!" so look at that. great guy. naptime. |