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so annoyed, so often.
2012-05-21 @ 12:04 a.m.
boy is such a dream come true. we've had a number of really trying days with this kid. and we're both really tired from building all of the furniture for his room and stuff. it looks so amazing. we got rope lights and ran them around the ceiling. all we could say the whole time was "he's so lucky!" because this is one of those rooms that you'd see on hgtv or something. room of my dreams at that age. my mom never asked me what color i wanted and certainly didn't give a shit what kind of furniture or sheets i wanted. fucking totally awesome rope lights? a brand new flat screen tv? handmade coordinated throw pillows and curtains? no wonder this kid thinks he can do whatever he wants to all the time. he gets all of this amazing shit for doing nothing. the world gets handed to him because his parents feel guilty. it's so annoying. and with every day that passes i hope that i can get my tubes tied, or maybe hopefully find somewhere i can get essure. i'm just ... SO not into it. so anyway. after a super annoying ALL NIGHT affair of "we're way too old to be playing the 'get in bed' game," and some ridiculous fake crying, boy and i got in bed and snuggled up in this cold room, tucked under the blankets. as he dug into the bed and his pillow, this cloud of his wonderful smell hit me. i rubbed his back and am now on my side, but i can't stop glancing over at him looking so cute. this boy i love so much. his lovely lovely face is back, because he SHAVED THE MUSTACHE! i was so happy when he came downstairs. he looks so good! i missed his face so much. he kept asking what was up with the looks I was shooting him all day, and i said hey. you're so cute again. i like it. earlier today we had a talk about household responsibilities and how he needs to like, have more of them. he does nothing around here and now this kid is here, tearing everything up, leaving messes everywhere. i'm not doing it all anymore. he needs to start helping. it's one thing when it's just the two of us but there are a lot of things that he's now expecting while my schedule permits, so he needs to lighten the load elsewhere. it was good and productive. we have a busy week ahead of us. oh yeah, he got laid off on friday. haha! oh life. i wrote about all of this earlier today but accidentally updated my browser before pressing done. sigh. |