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easter weekend recap.

2013-04-01 @ 5:14 p.m.

dudes, i've been having this huge problem lately with accidentally closing my browser. it happens like at least 5 times a day. it's because i was having startup problems so i stopped most services, and my touchpad stopped but won't come back on no matter what i do. like, whatever it is that controls the scroll function when you drag your finger down the side. if i want to scan something really quickly, i have to click on the scrollbar and drag it, and like almost every time i am doing this i flick my finger too far and hit the x. it's so aggravating but i've been running things in the background that i don't want to stop, so i keep procrastinating reinstalling the drivers because i know i'll have to restart.

all of that to say that i had written this huge thing earlier and accidentally closed it. here are the highlights: got my elbow tattooed on saturday and it hurt like a motherfucker (so far top 3 most painful: chest, armpit, elbow, but JUST above the knee is a very very close 4th). like not even directly on the elbow bone, which everyone who's done that has said was the worst. that sucked, but i think i have really tough elbow skin or something because it wasn't that bad. but like just to the side of the elbow, like the 1" radius around the elbow ... that was fucking absolutely terrible.

best friend and her boyfriend came and she emasculated the shit out of him in front of everyone, constantly. it was kind of weird and awkward and we didn't know if we should laugh or if it would hurt his feelings because he's really quiet and sensitive. they left early because she's still catering to every immature whim of kid's dad. his new girlfriend was mad at him because he blew her off to hang out with his own child so he was calling best friend to get her to leave another state, 3 hours away, to come back and pick up the kid NOW. great dad there.

we talked about life with tattoo guy and and we got hugs when we left. that was cool. he was like, you know, i think we're at that point in our relationship. we also got his personal phone number so we can more easily exchange ideas between appointments. that was really cool, especially because he was like, just for you. meaning, not best friend. it's funny that she's the one who introduced us but she's proven to be such a jackass that you can tell that he kind of doesn't really like her anymore. and i mean like, not simply based on her shameful life decisions. she's made a number of appointments and cancelled them at the last minute. that sucks when your entire income is based on a person showing up or not.

umm, easter happened at my dad's and it was nice because i talked to my mom this morning and she said that my cousin H who i really don't like (and i don't know why exactly, she just rubs me the wrong way) showed up completely unannounced, let her really poorly behaved kids tear up the house, and then took a bunch of food to go(!). my mom was like, um, hello, that's the food that WE were going to eat? like how rude is that!? ugh. SO glad we didn't go to that. i have a really really low tolerance for annoying anything, particularly children. it was really nice to chill out, smoke casually and openly, and not to have to deal with any of that bullshit.

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now it's 9:02am on tuesday; i had to walk away from the computer last night and couldn't make it back.

and now it's 2 hours later, at 11:30, and i still haven't been able to finish writing this because little A is grounded as well as on spring break so literally every fucking 5 minutes he needs something else. it is so annoying. i really, really, really wish he was one of those kids who understood that some people don't want you inside of their asses 24/7, but no. you tell him you're doing something and you need to concentrate and you might as well have just said, "i have a nose," because he's like okay and continues hovering around and talking to you like you never even said anything. i can't keep a train of thought or complete any task that i start because he's like, oh, you're trying to organize your mail right now? let me make you get up 5 times for random things, and now you have no idea what you were doing. oh, you just sat down to enjoy a cup of coffee? suddenly i have an urgent need for you to cook me an elaborate breakfast. i never ever eat anything but cereal, but since you're enjoying the last of the coffee this seems like the perfect time to ask you to cook scrambled eggs. like what the fuck, i wish he had stayed at his mom's until wednesday when spring break is almost over so i can have fucking 10 minutes of quiet time in my own house.

so at this point i don't even remember what else i had intended to write about.

boy and i have a lot of trips planned. i was thinking as we were driving home from VA the other day that he's the person i like hanging out with the most. like i used to really enjoy best friend, but over time i began to realize how dishonest she is all the time. i think they're probably self-serving lies, just to make her feel better about whatever awful thing she decided to do, but since we talk a lot less frequently i've noticed that when we do, i'll get like 2 or 3 different versions of the same story. i don't know why she bothers lying to me because it doesn't really make any difference either way. like what, i'm going to judge her? i've known her for 20 years. regardless of whether she's telling me the truth or not, i know the kind of person that she is.

oh, but back to the trips. there are a lot of really beautiful areas around here, and a few super cool historic sites that i never would have known were around had i not started exploring the parks and trails and historic sites maps for nj. one of my favorite things ever to explore are ruins and abandoned buildings, and there are a few great public spots within 45 minutes or so that we can't wait to get to. last weekend (did i write about this?) we went down to sea isle city and walked the beach. there's a little inlet down there that's a state park, so we walked super far along the edge of the water, like a mile out. hurricane sandy blew so much sand from the beaches that if we were dressed appropriately, we could have walked out nearly into the middle of the ocean due to all of the new sand bars. boy wanted to, and i was like yeah. go stick your hand in the water. i DARE you. and he did, and the water was totally freezing! i was like duh, you know the ocean is like ice cold until august.