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 �what is Man? a miserable little pile of secrets.� - andr� malraux "i desire to live in peace and to continue the life i have begun under the motto, to live well you must live unseen." - rene descartes note random entry image credit design by : ilazarn ikmal powered by : diaryland |
saying i love you.
2007-06-23 @ 3:33 a.m.
we cemented our commitment to each other today in this thing that we do. it was such a happy time. our close friends were there, and we received many well wishes. after it was over, we sat together like we always do, and i told him all of the things about him that make me feel this way. i told him that he was honest, and nice, and generous, and kind to people. and we shared all of the same views about most things. he told me that i wasn't like anyone else he'd ever met. that i was nice and sweet and good too. it's hard for me to know for sure, but just on the tip of my lips was "i love you." i wanted to tell him - i don't know how he'd feel about it. is it taking it too seriously? would i scare him away? i do though, and that's why i'm so afraid. i want to tell him all the time that i love him. yes he's so young and yes this isn't real life, but it's real love to me. if i knew him in person i don't think we'd ever be able to get enough of each other. it's so beautiful. he still wants to come here, and i know he won't feel the same when he sees me - i always look better in photographs - but i just want to spend one night in his arms. i want to be with him. i think about it every day. it's almost like an addiction. sometimes i think i'm going insane. |