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things i want.
2007-06-28 @ 1:00 a.m.
i can't help my burning desires. the one from the internet has gone away for a week and i miss him desperately. WILDLY. it makes me remember how lonely i really am. then today i saw the other one. the one from school. every time i think of him i imagine him taking me into his arms and helping me break every rule i know. i feel sometimes that i'm actually devouring him with my eyes. he hugs me and he smells like sex and youth. those crinkly, gorgeous eyes. his tousled hair. god, it's almost unbearable how much i want him. i'm going to do all of the wrong things tomorrow. if i get the right feeling, i'm going to let things happen and hope that i can be smart enough. it's not fair that i can't have anything i really want. maybe it's because the things i want are things i should not have. |