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my heart is breaking, as usual.
2007-07-25 @ 12:29 a.m.
i feel like all i ever do in my life is give and never receive. i thought we really had something honest and true between us, and as time passes i'm slowly beginning to either believe or realize that this is a very unbalanced relationship. i don't know if he's trying to get one over on me, or if he is being true, but whatever the case i feel like i'm being used. i'm starting to get nervous, and i regret all of the personal things i've told him and all of the things he's seen and all of the promises we've made. no, we weren't going to take this seriously but he's the one who said that we were. and now we're taking it seriously but really i'm the only one. it hurts. i want to be the one, just for once. i don't know what it is about me that makes that never happen. |