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 �what is Man? a miserable little pile of secrets.� - andr� malraux "i desire to live in peace and to continue the life i have begun under the motto, to live well you must live unseen." - rene descartes note random entry image credit design by : ilazarn ikmal powered by : diaryland |
tomorrow, and the next day, and forever.
2010-04-25 @ 10:53 p.m.
we went on a little mini vacation on wednesday, and the long weekend with him just ended earlier today. i was glowing and in love the whole time, and we had an excellent trip. we travel well together. it's weird when i hear him start making plans in the way future, because it starts to make me happy and nervous all at the same time. i get excited when he says, "when we live together," or "next year for my birthday," or whatever, because it means i'm included in these plans. what makes me nervous is that i got so used to being alone that i almost like it better. i miss him so desperately until the moment he gets here, and it starts again the moment he leaves, but while he's here sometimes i feel myself getting a little bit frustrated and wishing for some space. i think it's all just such a change, and it'll take a good amount of getting used to. i'm trying because i want to. i want to wake up in 15 years and see his face. it's just right. |