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buzzing.
2011-10-20 @ 6:56 p.m.
i completed so many things today, and at least two of them were things that i thought were going to be super daunting, but i actually got them done quickly and exactly how i wanted them to be. i'm so excited. a long time ago i wrote about how i have purchase anxiety about a lot of things, so the other day when i was putting in this huge, really expensive order for supplies for the project, i was like freaking out. especially because i asked the live chat person on the website if they sold samples and she said no, so i said, oh i'll just return the stuff i don't like, and she's like nuh uh, NO RETURNS on [those items]!! so obviously i was SUPER nervous about ordering at that point. but i remembered the business i had done with them in the past, and i had some of the old supplies left over from then and they were so high quality that i just sucked it up and ordered. let me tell you that i am 110% satisfied and so excited about embarking on the production phase of this thing. i can't even stand it. i want to start tonight, but i'm feeling so lazy now after i smoked mid-afternoon. i don't usually do that, but boy isn't here yet and i had wild cramps. what can you do. so yeah, i just feel really motivated. you know, sometimes you'll have this really ambitious thing planned, and you try to do your best to get it to happen how you imagined, but more often than not there'll be one stupid thing to catch you up. i am not having that experience this time around. everything has been golden. i know it sounds so fucking lame, but i've been watching oprah's life class lately, and it's so good. i know eyes are already rolling, but she has such a positive message about being your authentic self and doing what your heart tells you and shit. exactly the same positive "believe in yourself!" hippie nonsense i'm always writing about. anyway, i think it's fantastic and i gotta tell ya, it makes me feel really confident about myself and my abilities and my future when i'm living the same philosophies as oprah, one of the most successful people ever. my brother and i got in this [totally not serious] fight the other day about oprah, because he hates her and thinks she's this ridiculous, self-indulgent, ego-driven maniac, and i obviously disagree. so we're going back and forth over it, and i finally had to just throw it in there that regardless of whether she's being genuine or not, i support her because she's a black woman in a position of power. my bro comes at me like, "okay, but seriously, what MAN do you know that had to have a whole TV network?? and NAME it after himself!?" and i'm like, "uh, ted turner, dude." and he just said, "fair enough." and the conversation was over. haha. i'm so excited to get started making stuff tomorrow that i almost want to go to bed early!! maybe boy will also be able to keep his eyes open for a minute tonight?? how lucky can i get?? ;-) |