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always a racecar in the red.
2012-03-25 @ 4:45 p.m.
i am convinced that there are some people who don't want it to get better. you tell them really simple things they can do to improve their situations that they cry and cry about all the time, but they refuse to at least try it. try something fucking different. this person or this thing is "ruining your life" you say? really, is it? because you don't seem to care to put even a quarter as much effort into doing something about it as you do complaining to everyone all the time. is it fear of change for some people, or is it just an addiction to drama? always having to be in crisis mode or life is no fun? i'm thinking of a couple of people here, but mostly best friend, because she's sitting there in the car yesterday telling me this situation that's going on between her and her kid's father, and i'm just like really dude? you're the person who's sitting there banging your head into the wall, complaining about what a bad headache you have, but instead of stopping the banging, you're motherfucking the wall for being so hard. it doesn't make any sense and is so annoying at this point. but the most aggravating thing about her is that she'll be sitting there, looking you right in the face, talking about the right decision. she'll seem so rational and say that she knows that this or that was a bad decision, and that she knows she should do x. so you leave thinking okay, this time it'll be different. maybe really this time she gets it. and then like a month or so will pass by, and i'll hear little about it, and the next thing i know she's telling me about this huge fucking crazy nonsense blowout that happened. and i'm like "well how did it even get to this point?" and then she'll tell me, "well, i decided to do y." like why did we even talk about this? just so you could talk to someone who has common fucking sense, so you can find out for sure what the RIGHT thing to do is, ALL so you can make sure you don't do it? is that how this works? advice day = opposite day? what the fuck. so whatever, she was going on and on about how she hates everyone and doesn't think that all of these people who are happy deserve it "just because they might have made some better decisions in their lives." WELL WHEN IS NOW THE RIGHT TIME TO START MAKING SOME BETTER DECISIONS IN YOUR OWN LIFE!? apparently it's working out really well for a lot of people, me included, and i tell you about it all the time! i just honestly think some people aren't happy unless they're unhappy. that's their personality. being happy, being nice, being thankful ... all of those things are boring. for them, it's better to harp on and on about all of the things they don't have instead of being appreciative of all of the things they do. in the same conversation about how no one deserves to be happy, she was complaining about how a co-worker didn't invite her to her wedding. i asked if she was particularly close to the woman, and she said that she felt that she was just as close to her as some of the other co-workers who were invited. so i said, "did anything ever happen between the two of you that would make her not want to invite you?" and she starts going on about how unattractive and boring she thinks the woman is, but she's "always been nice to her face," so she couldn't understand why the woman would invite some of those other people over her. hm. i have an idea. oh also, my comments work now. the other one sucked, but had so many delightful features. (i know we like to rock the notes here on dl but sometimes we're not always logged in, or don't want to be ...) |