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now i'm ready to start.
2012-06-06 @ 8:25 p.m.
talking to boy earlier, he said, "today has been the day from hell." and yes, now that i am back home after driving halfway across the state to meet him with some money so he could buy gas to get home, yes it has been. however, some other things have happened that have been so great. he found out that his new job is actually flexible. that, as a person who actually adds value to the company, he will finally be treated as such. finally, he can take a day off if he wants to. he can work late or leave early if he wants to. no fear of randomly being laid off when he and everyone else knows that he's the best worker on the job. finally, as the best worker on the job, he will be able to enjoy those perks. yes, it's almost 5 hours of driving per day, but he and i both know that it's worth it if he'll be able to take a friday off every now and then so we can enjoy our lives before we die. so that's great. the other thing that was great was today. the actual day. it was just the most achingly beautiful day i have experienced in as long as i can remember. probably second only to this day, which was the most perfect day ever. so i was just feeling all of these horrible feelings that i've been feeling lately, and my chest just kind of untightened and i was finally breathing. perfect weather, just warm enough, no humidity. so clear the clouds didn't even seem real. and then i met him with little A so he could go to his mother's and when he got back we smoked way too much and the ride home was like ultra contrast. super saturated, vivid color. i felt like i could feel every goosebump on my arm. and then the sun hid behind the clouds for a few miles, and i raced along, exhilarated, feeling the cool air tearing through the passenger side window across the cabin, across me, and finally ahead of me, the sun drops out of the bottom of this long cloud so quickly and suddenly, like a fiery penny dropping through a wet paper towel. it was just so glorious. literally awesome. boy is off tomorrow, and maybe friday. i hope not friday because we can't afford it yet. but i'm happy about tomorrow, because i miss having more than like ten minutes to talk to him every day. |