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 �what is Man? a miserable little pile of secrets.� - andr� malraux "i desire to live in peace and to continue the life i have begun under the motto, to live well you must live unseen." - rene descartes note random entry image credit design by : ilazarn ikmal powered by : diaryland |
oh, hello.
2013-06-17 @ 12:21 a.m.
i didn't realize i hadn't written in so long. it's one of those times where i have like, a lot lot to say but i don't know what to say. a lot of cool things have happened, and some not so. but still i am feeling ... i don't know. i just don't really know what's going on. i turned 30. i'm not one of those people who gets all weird about age. but it is just weird to hear myself say that i'm 30. for some strange reason, as a child, i never thought i'd live this long. but here i am. and my life is going kind of the way i wanted it to, but not really. and i want so much to be happy, but i wonder if that's something that i'm really capable of feeling. even at my happiest, there's always something. i can never say, "everything is all right." so i guess that's what i've been kind of struggling with. is it me? am i missing something here? anyway. hopefully i get somewhere with this during the week. |