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JC saga continues, on not wasting time.
2019-04-22 @ 8:57 p.m.
there was that huge thing two weeks ago with boss and JC, and JC didn't even miss a beat, just continued on being JC just like nothing fucking happened. so between now and then boss caught him lying to him a couple times about big things, again trading work and items for favors (on boss's dime, of course), lied that he messed up a customer's item and that the parts he used were ruined (at a cost of $1000) when in reality he ordered the parts on boss's dime, then said he messed up the job and the customer refused to pay but actually had the customer come to his house where he did the job and took the cash, and finally just today, pocketing money from another customer. boss was so upset about all of this shit. he's usually upset about this shit but it seems that, finally this time, he has realized that JC has to go. or at the very least, he needs to become a regular employee who just does his job and doesn't strut around like it's his own place. we had a guaranteed ongoing account with a nearby business where we'd do some of their work for them because they were slammed and had high turnover. it was guaranteed like a minimum of $2k weekly. but JC kept fucking around, didn't get their work done on time, messed stuff up, would take work and then go on vacation for fucking 10 days and not tell anyone that this place had stuff in the queue, so it just wouldn't get done. and then they'd call and ask like hey, what's up with our stuff ...? and i'd awkwardly say oh ... JC is on vacation until next week? he didn't tell you? ... sorry? fuck that guy! and that's exactly what boss said. he was like, hey just you watch. it's the new and improved [boss]. and i said yeah man, i'm totally here for that guy. can't wait to finally succeed for all of this work we're doing! so anyway, JC is going on yet another vacation (how does he have all of this money for vacations all the time?) at the end of may so boss said he's going to tell him on may 15th to get all of his open accounts paid or JC's going to have to pay them himself. and that's it. go on vacation and come back as just a regular employee who just does his work and doesn't interact with customers and goes home, or he can just not come back. i love it. i am not a person who wishes ill upon other people. i hate that. but i fucking love justice, and JC has long deserved it! it would be one thing if JC was really hard up, like he was struggling to make ends meet and he was doing this for survival. but he's one of those fake fucking christians who act all fucking holier than thou and quote bible verses when they talk to you but they lie and cheat and steal from the people closest to them. JC is out there buying new cars, buying a new house, doing all kinds of home improvements, going on vacations literally 4 times a year, flagrantly living this extravagant life while suddenly a business that had been profitable is turning a loss. fuck that guy! i think that's really fucking shitty and if boss actually follows through on this, i won't feel bad. i don't know if i wrote it in here but one night boss was like oh my god, what am i going to do, i'm so stressed about this. and i said i don't want to fucking hear about it anymore unless you're going to DO something! it's like you have fucking cancer and you want to operate on every other part of the body except the tumor! come on already. so we'll see. i'm excited this time around. he actually kind of seems like he's had enough. i am excited to see this place cleaned up, looking orderly and professional like a business. i'm excited to make some more money and be proud of what we do! customers come because they like us, but i want them to come because we also actually sell good stuff that they want. i am fucking starving! why am i so hungry the past couple days. i feel like i ate so much more food than usual too, i don't know what's going on. brb, must eat. whew! okay, here i am. so the weather is getting nicer and nicer, which i love. the fan is working great and keeping it incredibly cool in here. i'm super excited that i will be able to save on my electric bills this summer, because when i bought my AC i didn't think to look if it was energy star. i thought in modern appliances it was just a given, but apparently not!! so now you know, if you didn't. it really makes a huge difference. it took me most of last summer to get the rhythm of how to turn the unit on and off, whether to have it set to dehumidify, fan, or cool, what the perfect temp was where the compressor wasn't kicking on every 5 minutes. i feel like now, armed with knowledge and a fan that actually works, i might do alright this year. i've got my eye on my budget. it's almost the summer already! i need to buy so many things for vacation. i need to get my hair done. i have other weekend trips planned. haven't seen best friend in months. it seems like christmas was just yesterday. there's never enough time! i hate to end on such a sad note but easter was nice but hard. it's hard seeing my grandmother still sharp in her mind, in a body that's failing. she still has her sense of humor, she still hears you and sees you and gives you shit. but she's weak, she's old, she's lonely. she hates having someone else take care of her. she doesn't have anything to do all day, and she's so limited in what she can physically do now that she has started doing these childish, manipulative behaviors for attention. it sucks seeing this not only because i've always known her as this strong, smart, independent woman. i hate the little manipulations the most. because you can see how my mother became the way she is, and you can see exactly what she's going to turn into when she's that age. it's so hard to love people who are terrible. the same with my stepdad. he's such an obnoxious, unpleasant, mean person. if my mother goes first, i'm going to be left having to take care of that guy? ugh. we're all getting older and everyone is moving on with their lives, and even those of us who are relatively nearby and "close" with each other are getting older, moving away. shitty infighting between the aunts and uncles and my grandmother's situation is just making everything so tense and our gatherings so brief and perfunctory. on one hand, i'm the kind of person who wants to get everything out in the air, let people know if i'm upset with them, work that shit out. but if we know we're not capable of that, can't we all at least push past the stupid disagreements we're having about money and things that don't really matter and focus on our families? our memories together? laughs? we're all we have in this world. come on, guys. why waste the brief, precious time we have together? but i guess i feel that way about everything now. maybe it's just me. i say it to boss all the time. time is flying by. spend it loving and appreciating what you have, the people you have, and where you are. everything seems so precious to me now, because i almost didn't have it. but i'm alive, and every experience on this side feels amazing and new. i wish i could explain it. i wish i could explain it to them. okay. guess i'm going to bed now. this weekend i have some fantastic plans. it's supposed to be 66 and sunny. the trees have mostly grown back down here and it will be a warm, wet week, so up north it will be amazing by saturday! my new phone has an excellent camera, i have my hiking boots, i am so ready. i'm living my best life right now. boss's dad was telling me today how he would like to do more things but he's scared. it's dangerous overseas, it's dangerous here. safer to just not go anywhere. and i didn't say this, but i was so close to death. i looked it in the eye and fought for myself. i'm not afraid of it anymore. the only thing i'm afraid of now is missing out and wasting time. love you bye! |