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stepping out.
2016-06-26 @ 12:13 a.m.
this is probably the last time i'm going to remember to write for a while, because i'm a jackass like that. but maybe just saying that will make me remember and find the time more often. hmm. 50/50 chance here. so anyway, like last month my therapist was yelling at me because i am soooo antisocial and in the beginning i said one of my goals was to try to be more social like a "normal" person, but i do absolutely everything to avoid actually being more social. and since then every time i go, he says with a smirk, "so did you go out and do anything this weekend?" and of course i laugh and tell him about all of the things i was invited to do but did not. but this week will be pretty cool because i actually did make a little bit of effort this time. last weekend it wasn't really "social," but we did a family dinner for some special days that passed, and it was a really good time. no particular reason, it was just a good old-fashioned pleasant time. neither of my parents were being dicks or bickering and my brother wasn't being grumpy and he and his wife weren't having any kind of fight and boy wasn't there so not only was i on time but he wasn't there to fight with either (usually at least one or more of these things are happening at a family gathering). so i was really happy. then i went to boy's and he snuggled the shit out of me (i wrote about that the other day) and i had a great weekend. then this weekend best friend was like yo, wanna go do stuff? and my mom had given me this magazine that featured philly's best restaurants and some cash for my birthday, so she and i and the kiddo went and ate (and i drank) so much for lunch. so it was cool to be drunk by 1:30pm, then we went to ikea and some other places before heading back. then we went out later because she needed to do some shopping and her other best friend joined us (i'd met her once before for a few hours) and we went out and had a delightful time. i'm suuuuper tired now but i'm happy i didn't lame out and decide to go home midday when we came back to regroup. ok bye! |