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 �what is Man? a miserable little pile of secrets.� - andr� malraux "i desire to live in peace and to continue the life i have begun under the motto, to live well you must live unseen." - rene descartes note random entry image credit design by : ilazarn ikmal powered by : diaryland |
and you may ask yourself, well ... how did i get here?
2017-08-31 @ 8:22 p.m.
are you ever just like ... is this really happening? like, you know? you look at your life right now and you're just like, fuck, what IS this? i keep seeing people say, in reference to the fact that trump is actually president and like 1000x worse than we thought realistically possible, "i want out of this timeline!" and i'm like, holy shit, RIGHT!? all of this can't really be real. useless degree in a field you settled on and in which you don't want to work. love of your life, with whom you had on so many nights imagined growing old with, just gone. but not before they fucked absolutely everything up and left you holding a really big bag. will soon lose home of nearly 10 years and move to a place 1/4 of the size. dress nice to cover up how much you are dying inside. you live in a constant state of anxiety. and yeah, once again, donald trump is actually the president. for the past few years, i've always, at my darkest moments, clung to the thought, "tomorrow is going to be better." i am still here because somewhere inside me that voice always says that. but wow am i having a hard time believing it lately. |